I'm losing it 😢

Too many issues and I'm slowly losing it.

1. I hate the baby brain. I saw that the sauce was open but picked it up so bad that it spilled all over the carpet. I opened the protein carton, forgot that I did and shook it spilling it all over.

2. I have 30 lbs to lose. My tendonitis is only getting worse everyday. I can't take a flight of stairs without collapsing after and ice dipping my ankles.

3. I can't sit on the floor like normal humans anymore. I have to get on to all fours, then downward dog pose and stand up if I have to get up.

4. I did wrong upper body exercises only to find out that I have diastasis recti. Now I can't do planks, situps and crunches.

5. I've been spotting since 12/3 and bleeding for the last one week. The earliest appointment I could get is 1/9.

I am hating the fact that my blessing came with an aftermath I am unable to endure. How are other multiples moms doing with respect to your bodies? I feel my body is crushed, broken and damaged really bad 😭 I want my old healthy fit body back 😢