SORRY FOR THE BAD ENGLISH MY NATIVE LANGUAGE IS FRENCH

I'm 19years old in an african family and i'm so sad right now because of parents:the reason is that thanks to them i barely have a social life and a love life basicaly in our friends group i'm the ones who is never there the eternal absent and it's always because of them;I have to always make excuses or excuses myself for not being there even though i promised and it makes me so sad and embarassed even more because when i need them they are always present but me I can't for them it's frustrating and i'm really touched by this it's so bad that sometimes they meet without me because they assume I can't make it which is fair but you know it still hurts a lot;I have a driver licence but my dad won't let me drive saying i have to go back to the driving school and have personal lessons with a teacher;it's so stupid that i'm speechless because it's not that I need to Learn again no i just got the licence

Well about my love life he is so annoying and all that if right now I meet someone who likes me and whom i like i will still let that person go without trying anything;it's sooo bad that he took the hoodie one of my friends gave me when i was cold saying i'm an idiot who take boys gift and i'm not lacking anything at home so why should i take the hoodie

Please help me what can I do i'm really sad and helpless right now thanks guys