New Year Blues

My boyfriend and I are trying to get pregnant. I'm one of those who have PCOS and irregular cycles but for the past year my cycles have been regular. That's until my cycle didn't come on for November and now December. So I thought "hmmm I'm going to test just to see if I'm lucky" 😔😩 That negative blue line dragged my heart to the ground right before New Years . This is the first time taking a pregnancy test and I'm so doubtful now for the future even though I know it's many options out there. How do you come back from getting that negative result when a positive result is all that you've ever wished for? 😭😞