So. I have a load of health issues that are always worse at night... when they show up, my anxiety skyrockets and I start doubting everything and I start worrying about every bad thing that can happen in pregnancy and I even tell my husband that I'm not strong enough to carry... then I wake up and I'm super happy about things again.. I don't really know what I'm asking or needing.. I just feel like my health has taken over my life, and I don't want it to take my possibility to be a mother too..