Scared to take birth control??

Jae
My boyfriend and I have sex with a condom but sometimes we risk it and go bare for a little bit because he's got low sensitivity and he's only ever cum from sex twice. Even though we've been hella risky before, now that I have gotten the birth control pill, I'm scared to take it. The more he asked me about getting on birth control, the more anxious I got and stopped wanting to have sex. Now that I have the pill, sex is the furthest thing from my mind and I don't want to take any birth control even though I don't want to get pregnant. Does anyone else have anxiety like this? I don't know what's wrong with me.