Help me ladies!!

India
My AF is due on the 9th (Monday) and I'm trying so so hard to forget about the unused HPT in my bathroom cabinet calling my name in the morning! I seriously don't think I've gone one single month where I haven't tested early. It's literally impossible. I would be 10 dpo tomorrow, which I know is crazy early! But I keep seeing ladies with their BFPs at like 8 dpo!! I'm so bad about waiting...pulling my hair out over here and trying not to symptom spot! The struggle is real!