I know you guys are probably read this like that's disgusting, but let me explain......................

So I'm adopted. Since 3 days old I've been with the best family ever. So loving and supportive. I appreciate them.

Now I'm 21, in my 21 years on this earth I thought I known every family member in my family! But it turns out that I didn't.

Year after year family affair after family affair, same faces, same people. I really thought I knew every cousin, sister, brother, aunt and uncle there was.

One day I randomly get an add on Facebook. I look at our mutual friends and it was a lot of my friends on there so I accept the request. About a year into our friendship on Facebook I get a random from this person, "Hey Holly, I've been looking at you for a while and I just wanted to tell you that your gorgeous." I'm instantly flattered because which girl doesn't love a good compliment now and then. And I've kinda been thinking the same about him.

Me and him were both in really bad relationships at the time of that message. We start talking about our partners to each other and thought of many ways to fix our relationships and it worked. We were happy with our partners for at least a year before both of our relationships were completely soiled. We talked each other through our break ups and started falling for each other.

We just started things slow because we were hurt from our last relationships. Then sex started getting involved. Then every emotion we had in our bodies was involved. It was really incredible. We fell in love.

July 21st 2016 I found out I was pregnant. I was so scared and I didn't know what to do. I told him and he was so happy he decided to FaceTime his sister with the news. The phone rang, and when I saw who his sister was I literally passed out and fell out the car door.

MY COUSIN NICOLE!!!!!!!

He hung up the FaceTime to help me up and make I was okay. I explained to him that that was my cousin and I immediately felt sick to my stomach.

I haven't talked to him since. I'm due to have my baby any day now and I feel bad that he might not be there. What should I do?

Can someone help me please? Everyone in my family is asking me to reach put to him but I just can't. How will I explain to my daughter that her father is my cousin.

That's really weird!!!!!!!!