sometimes I really wonder where is my life headed ?

Br
Just a little rant about about me... I'm 28 years old no kids (not my choice I think god knew the men I was involved with wasn't the one) I have my own business (daycare provider) my own own etc etc I take care myself. I recently had a breakdown because I keep wondering why am I alone yet once again (XY&Z) say they love me but I'm at the point in my love don't say it show me and I refuse to just settle for that. Eveyone tells me your young live your life and I'm doing just that but why am I finding myself when life hits me with curve balls I'm all alone ☹️.  I get overwhelmed with life so much and sometimes wishes I had someone (SO) to be like "it's okay" or "I'm here for you".