I hate this feeling but I feel as if my marriage can't continue. I'm the only one it seems trying to make this work. Sometimes I wonder if what his babymother says is true and that he's with me for security since I'm the bread winner and pays all the bills. The only things I ask for was to have a baby (been trying a year) and he wants one as well; but now I feel like he says that just to shut me up. I've never received any gifts and if I got a teddy bear, my money bought it. He has a job and suppose to give me money towards our car payment (I paid the down payment and the agreement was for him to pay monthly) and he hasn't done anything. I don't even have a ring. He suppose to be getting me one, but I feel like it's another lie.

I swear I'm a good woman, I take care of him and my disabled brother, I pay his child support, and give him money to spend on his cigars, weed, and cigarettes.

We don't even cuddle. We talk a lot but I don't feel we communicate. Let's be real, we haven't slept under the same covers since we met.

Before we met, I used to get a mani and pedi every two weeks. That has not happened in over a year. I feel like I'm naive.

I'm not tripping am I? He's using me, right?

Update: Thank you, ladies for the comments. We talked and still are.