Since having my implant out on the 22nd of dec my body has been all over the place therefore so has my head.

Af reused to visit on time, i got stomach flu, my hormones have been through the roof and my poor SO has had to deal with more crazy than I knew I was even capable of!

Ive been reading these forums like an addict and it's only made my crazy worse. all you ladies seem to know your cycles and bodys inside out I barely even knew what half of you were talking about (had to Google everything) I was beginning to wonder if I was really cut out for all this tracking and planning and organisation when I couldn't even predict my next mood.

Today Af arrived my mental state leveled and I realised you've probably all been here and I'm over thinking and stressing about it all for no reason. starting a family is meant to be fun and exciting not stressful and scary.

So it's officially cycle day 1 and I'm going into this with a new state of mind!

once AF has finished her visit I will do nothing but enjoy my partner and our journey together and try to be less crazy!!

let's see how long I last haha.

xx