just need to vent

We have been ttc for 10months of which 2 cycles clomid. Really thought this cycle would be it. But AF came today. Worst timing ever. We have 2 family gatherings today. Both where I have to talk and be happy for a pregnant niece. I wish I could curl up in bed and cry my eyes out. But no such luck. Plastering on a happy smile and keep hoping for better luck next time.