So I was the one who posted about an abortion. Today he came over and I showed him so pictures in my since book about embryo development and he couldn't believe how far along it was. I broke down today and told him I couldn't do it and I would not get an abortion. Ikeot telling him before that I didn't need him anyways. Today I told him I didn't want to be a single mother but I would if I had to. I told him you would leave me either way rather I had an abortion or I kept the baby. I told him I could not kill the baby. I could not live with my self and physically I've been through it when I had my first miscarriage the pain was horrible. And he saw how I was emotionally that this time would be worse since I chose to do it. That he can just walk away and I would have to live with this decision for the rest of my life and once it was over he could just walk away. I told him if he didn't want to stay he can go. That he basically told me he was going to leave if he kept it. He told me he never said he was going to leave that he didn't know what he was going to do. That he has never been a father before and it scares him. That he doesn't know what he will do until the baby is born. That he feels no emotional connection right now like I do. He wanted to know why he didn't feel a connection like I do. I told him (which I hope I'm right) that some guys don't get a connection until the baby is born. They are not going through the sickness and all e other symptoms and they baby is not growing inside of him. The baby is growing inside of me and I have a connection because it's part of me. So I don't know what is going to happen we are about to go to dinner. Maybe if we work on us and by the time the baby gets here everything would be better. He told me that he only said that he wanted to leave me to make me want to leave him. That he doesn't want to leave me. So will see what happens tomorrow st my ultrasound and see what happens taking it one day at a time.