So so sad pumping almost coming to an end

Rita · 2017-01-10T16:18:28

I used to hate pump ">pumping , because I felt it ruled my life. I couldn't go out or somewhere far because of the pump ">pumping schedules/commitments. But, I sucked it up for my baby boy, because "they" say pump ">breast milk is best for baby. From the start I had low milk supply, so my son was fed primarily formula and supplemented with pump ">breast milk . As he got older and started eating more, my milk supply just couldn't keep up. So initially I thought about only pump ">pumping for 3 months. Then I read somewhere that it's best to breast feed for at least 6 months, so I continued pump ">pumping . But, my milk supply started plummeting. It was gradual, and I was mad that I didn't even notice it. By the time I noticed, my milk supply had already depleted about 50%. Then I tried the hospital-grade pump ">breast pump . The Rolls Royce of pump ">breast pumps , as we were once told in one of the classes we attended, also one that is not covered by my insurance. Anyway, I wanted the best for my son, so I tried it. It would take up to 10 days for the supply to go up, I was told, and that if by then it doesn't, it probably is not going to change. That was what happened to me - my milk supply did not increase. So comes the hard decision to stop pump ">pumping , because I've had put much effort into pump ">pumping since day 1 with very little results, and it was just not worth it anymore. So I started cutting down pump ">pumping sessions gradually, as I was instructed to do. Ever since the beginning of all this I have always felt inadequate for not being able to produce enough milk for my baby. And with this now coming to an end I am feeling extremely, extremely depressed. I feel as though I'm now of "no use" to my baby.

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