🤔 Question please about manipulation? 🤔

I know that I'm a manipulative person, and I know that it is not good at all. I also have a boyfriend, and my behavior with him has been not so great. I am an abuser. How to change? I don't want to be this person anymore. I do not like who I am, and I know that my behavior is unacceptable. Please help me out? It is greatly appreciated!!