memories coming back from abusive realationship

Abby
This past year has been hell I just got outta a really abusive relationship in December I found out I was pregnant with my exes baby I was happy about the pregnancy cuz I always wanted to be a mommy well my ex decided to do crack and got addicted and that wen he got physical, he would punch me if I said no to him and everytime we fought he would hit me I tried to fight back but I was big and pregnant and couldn't do much let's spend up to wen I was 7 months (yes I went 7 months dealung with his shit)
He would stalk me I couldn't go no where  but anyways at 7 months i decided I've had enough so I broke up with him well the next day he breaks in my house starts choking me then started dragging me up and down the stairs by my hair he finally decided to stop dragging me and began punching me at that point I said fuck me idc about me let me protect my baby cuz he was trying to kick me in my stomache he finnaly leaves I call the cops they arrest him  that was 6 months ago and  I now remember a lot more stuff that happened like wen I tried to leave him at 5 months he held a knife to my belly and made me drive  he then hit me he held me hostage for 45 mins. Before I talked him into letting me go
Now he wants me to get over my pride and let him see his son and everybody thinks this was a one time thing and I can't tell anybody about the kidnaping thing cuz I feel they won't believe me so I just needed to come on here and vent cuz it's 3 in the morning and I can't sleep I really want to go the fuck off on my ex and tell him to stop trying to talk to my friends cuz he thinks that just because he's "change " I need to forgive him