I have had so many miscarriages but none like I had in August. I got pregnant in April lost in May which came like a period like all my other miscarriages except 2 which had some pain. Got pregnant in may and my blood work was rising and at 18,000 I got an ultrasound with no heartbeat, I called my doctor because the tech can't tell me anything but I knew in my heart I knew what that meant. She told me just to wait  and do blood work in a few days so I waited and it dropped. a few weeks later I wiped and seen bright pink I went to the emergency room because I just knew... they sent me home and again no heartbeat and my levels dropped again. My baby died at 8 weeks and I delivered at 13/14 weeks at home. The pain was unreal the amount of blood was horrific and the emotions are ones that can't be explained. I was all alone for days sleeping in a bathtub crying out to Jesus to help me understand why. Here I am months later and I'm scared. My doctor told me my auto immune diseases are killing my babies as if they are parasites how do I know I can ever carry one again. I got told my scar tissue is so bad that it would be a long time before I can even try again and be successful. When I was young I had no problems with pregnancies and ever since this auto immune I can't keep them long. This was the longest I carried since my 5 year old. Any other moms have auto immune and successful pregnancies?