So after I left my abusive ex I finally decided to motivate myself and move forward with my life! I started working out like crazy and continue college after I left him I lost myself for a few months I was in the worst place I was going out partying and just going with any guy who would give me any type of affection not my proudest moment I ended up loosing more of myself the more guys I would go to and I expected them all to stay after a one night stand to replace the empty void but I learned nothing ever changed, being so easy so I wanted a change so I stopped going out started working out my ex made fun of how I became after the breakup I realized I was only shamming myself so I decided to get myself back in shape and go back to college get a career and not depend on a man if one ends up going my way I won't beg him to stay and not get my hopes up too fast