The heartbreak is real with this journey

Ammie
I found out that my sister in law just found out she's pregnant with her 4th child...the same week I find out I am once again not pregnant. Trying to keep the bitterness and sadness out of my heart gets harder and harder each month. I'm happy for her...but I'm so insanely sad for myself. I feel broken and useless almost like am only 1/2 a woman.
It might seem silly...but as I seem myself creeping ever closer to 30 years old I can't help but get scared this might never happen for me. Ladies, I am asking for prayers. Prayers for faith and patience. I will pray for you too. 
Maybe this next month will be our month.