emotions

Yesterday, I was supposed to go into the OB clinic to get a second opinion, to see if my baby developed his/her heartbeat late. I've read a lot of articles about women who were misdiagnosed with missed miscarriage. I was hoping that I was one of those women. But I wasn't. On Monday, I knew I officially lost baby, had to get an emergency D&C. My mom and brother flew in from SF to help me and my hubby. I'm thankful. I know I'm loved, but I still feel so sad. I wanted my baby. I planned for him/her. I don't know how I can ever recover from this loss. I'm trying..but I'm still so sad.