Still very soon, but so very nervous.

Boyfriend and I have been TTC only for 2 months. I know it's a very short time but I wanted to be a mommy ALL MY LIFE but never tried. I was on birth control for 10 years, had a surgery to clear my tubes and remove a huge ovarian cyst in September 2016, and I am so afraid that I will have complications. During Nov 2016, I blamed it on my ending my birth control at the beginning of the month. In December, I blamed it on using improper lube as I recently became informed about the issues with most lube and sperm. So in January, I am off ALL medication, using Preseed only, and praying for my BFP. Please send that good ole baby dust my way!