Trying to get off BC but my boobs are shrinking !?

Nadia • 23 years of age. Young professional, tea enthusiast, flower child, and my favourite colour is peach. Nice to meet you
What were some of your experiences like getting off BC? I hate it.. I want back on it.. I decided to go off it thinking I wasn't doing my body any good being on it for so many years (I'm 23 now, started at 14) but I did and still do have pretty bad cramps whenever I'm not on BC so I'm scared its gonna be so bad I'd have to go back on it anyway but also the fact that I have to deal with my breasts feeling smaller due to hormones leaving my system and all is seriously messing up my self esteem as well... Or am I just crazy?!