I've never felt so depressed.

I'm back to work today and I swear I've never done anything so hard. Labor was easier than feeling like this. I couldn't even look at my baby boy before I left because every time he smiled at me I lost it. I've been crying all morning. He's with his daddy, thankfully, so I know he's in good hands. But having to go 10 whole hours without being with my baby is hurting me so deeply. I don't know how I'm going to get through the day. Haven't even been gone 30 mins and I could puke from being so sad. My separation anxiety is at an all time high 😓