Wedding

Ok so backstory!

My bf and I have know each other for about 3 years now and we have been in a strong relationship for 1.5 year. I already know he's my man. I want to be with him and only him, though we are still waiting.

Now I have a very huge conflict! My father is starting to show some signs of Alzheimer's. Now my bf and I have been talk about marriage for some time, and with the resent big change in my dad I'm afraid he might understand my wedding and will not be fit enough to walk me down the aisle. I have always dreamed of my dad walking me down and it being extremely special as I'm his last child to marry. My dad is 78 years old and I'm extremely afraid that I won't have him like my sister did.

My bf is still insisting on waiting, amd I do agree with him. I don't believe we are ready to sign papers even though we both know in our hearts that we are meant to be together. There's so much outside stuff going on that both him and I want deal with first so when we are married we can focus on starting our marriage strong. Just now I do feel like I want to move the marriage up even if its not the whole big wedding we both want, but just signing papers while my dad still remembers who we are.

*note 85% of his family died from Alzheimer's and each one fades fast once its begun.