I feel embarrassed 😩

So I'm one of those girls who was so skinny when it was half of my elementary school life . Then in 3rd grade I got fat ... I was chubby from 3rd thru 6th . I finally lost weight and now I'm kinda skinny but still have meat 😂 anyways i have a fat vagina . And it's soooo embrassing ! Like I can never wear a bikini cause of it 😩 I think it looks so ugly on me , and I'm scared that if I finally lose my VCard that they wouldn't like me cause of my vagina . Is it weird ? Should I be embarrassed ? Cause I feel ashamed 😩✌️