Broken hearted

I write this with a broken heart and tiers in my eyes after much debate and going back and forth with 3 different doctors and a year long battle of trying to conceive to no avail me and the SO have decided that trying has gotten us no where so we will no longer be trying all future appointments have been canceled to further notice and all we will do is pray from this point on if it is meant to be it will be if it doesn't I think both my SO and I both have come full circle withy the idea that maybe it will never happen for us! Day one starts tomorrow hopefully it's not as bad as my last night of being hopeful and trying!