Really need some good news after a hard few years

I have two healthy girls, now 4 and 3 and I love them with all my heart. In January 2015 I lost my father to lung cancer and then a year and a half later my brother was killed in a car crash (June 2016) We have been trying for another baby for 11months now and every month Af comes I get more and more upset.

I would love to have a baby boy so I can name him after my father and brother. Obviously if we were to have another girl I would still love her as a baby is a blessing.

I just need something positive after all the heartache our family has occurred. Is it to much to ask?