Needless to say, it was a whirlwind of a year. I have just finished my second period after my last mc. My doctors want to start testing to see what's wrong. I am ready to find out what's wrong as well. But the thought of everything happening all over again terrifies me. I can't imagine seeing another positive pregnancy test and feeling joy. I know it will be pure anxiety. I get anxiety thinking about the time when we will start ttc again. How can it ever be a positive thing? 

Just needed to rant. thanks for reading. I'm glad to have access to a community of women going through what I'm going thru. Love to each of you. ❤