From the time we started dating my SO hasn't been a fan of giving oral. I can count on 1 hand how many times in going on 5 years how many times I've received it. Now some of you may be thinking maybe it's my b.o. or something with my kitty buuuut if he fingers me, his fingers end up in his mouth and he loves the way I smell (says him). I love to please sexually it's fun for me but I'm not feeling the reciprocity. Like I'd do anything he'd ask of me if that's what he liked. I just don't understand. 

And so a few minutes ago I asked do you ever plan on going down on me orrr we waiting for a special occasion. He says special occasion! I say what's a special occasion he says I'll let you know 😔😔😔😒. 

I got a pretty kitty and now she and I are sad. I feel like now if he does do it... it's pity oral and he'd be doing it because I asked and not because he wants to.