I'm afraid of becoming that overly possessive mom

Shaki • Mommy to Prince JoJo 👶🏽💙 #JA#PR 🇯🇲🇵🇷
Before I found out I was having a baby, I always thought about how it was I was going to be with my child, was I going to be that laid back Chilled mom or more of the overly possessive type. 

It wasn't until I had my son that the thought began to worry me. My connection with my son is super strong. I always told my self that I will not raise a spoiled brat, he/she will be well mannered and independent.

My son is 7 months and already showing signs of self sufficiency, he wants to be on the go in his walker, he doesn't want to be held all the time, when falling asleep he much rather prefers to be put in his crib where he would eventually drift off to sleep...

But when he cries, I ALWAYS tend to him, the idea of my son being in discomfort or pain scares me, because I know the feeling of being in a state that I don't want to be in but not being able to speak out on it. 

Whoa shaki, a little dramatic there?!

I feel like I am my son's voice until he's old enough to fend for himself.. I know when he's uncomfortable, unhappy, bored.. I feel like as a mother it is my duty to make sure that he's always comfortable.

Every mother is different, every mother has a different style of parenting. Some mothers feel like a child will build a form of independence when being left to cry it out.

Now, if I know my son is tired or hungry.. I refuse to let him cry it out.. I want him to know that his cries are meaningful and that is his way of letting mama and dada know something is not right.

I am always willing to take over, if I feel like dada or granny or auntie or whomever can't handle my son because he's cranky or just hyper.. I take him from them.

Is this bad?

I won't always be there to step in and that's where I worry a little.. then that worrying makes me feel as if I'm maybe becoming that overly possessive mom.. AND THAT LADIES AND GENTS.. scares me!

I always have specifics for my child, if I feel like a certain formula doesn't work for him, I immediately want to change it, if an ointment may be too pasty.. change .. bottle not being prepared properly , change ..

I guess as a new mom I don't know if this is a issue or is it really just me being a mom, will it subside as my son gets older? Or will I raise a mamas boy x10

Any mamas ever felt this way?