Hey guys so I been in a relationship for 5 years with a guy . He honestly everything a girl can ask for . However lately reality has caught up to him and he wants to accomplish more. So he broke up with me . He says it's the most painful thing but it doesn't seem that way. I'm the one here crying at 1 am . We started dating really young I was 14 he was 16 now I'm 19 and he been the only guy I ever slept with.its so hard to let go because I can tell he doesn't want be with me anymore. I even thinks he doesn't love me anymore. He been verbally abusing me and  I been so depressed and hurt and my whole world has changed . The amount of sorrow and pain I feel is countless and words can't begin to describe . The first you guys may say just leave him and go love me life but it's easier said than done. That's the only serious relationship I ever had. And after this one I don't want another relationship I just want to be with him but I know he doesn't want me. I'm so hurt confused and depressed . Any suggestions on how to get better ?