It happened..

On January 5th we found out I was almost 5 weeks pregnant. Yesterday, at 6.5 weeks we found out it was an ectopic pregnancy.... an hour ago, I had to get the methotrexate injection. I am beside myself. I've been crying uncontrollably for 2 days. I cried as they gave me the injection... this pregnancy was planned. I have a 2 year old son. I feel like this is my fault. Like I betrayed my baby with the shot. We can't try for another for a minimum of 6 months until the chemical is completely out of my system.... I have been suffering anxiety and depression for 9 years. This is the hardest thing myself and my SO have ever had to go through...