Hi there everyone :)

first time on glow and I'm excited to start trying again it was just only 5 months ago on the 23rd of September 2016 me and my amazing hubby found out we were going to be first time parents we were so excited and over the moon couldn't wait to start our parenting journey together as anyone :) seeing those two lines on that pregnancy test after two years trying was amazing to see for me it was such a blessing we new we were ready for this big change :) ..

Unfortunately not everything you want most in life gose the way you would like life is just one big roller coaster and full off lots of surprises good ones and not so good ones .

on the 15th of october 2016 I was told I had a missed miss carriage it was probably the most hurtful and hardest thing to ever be told specially when its something in your life you have always wanted at that point I wasn't shore how to fill or be i was frozen for days the whole blame was on myself even tough I new it wasn't my fault its the first thing that comes to your head

I no I'm not the only one going trough something like this to I no I was only 6 weeks but there was something there

I had my partners support he was just amazing through out the whole situation so strong without him I would of been lost

I still felt useless though and very depressed it went on for weeks but guys with all the support and help out there from just friends family support workers social workers ect..

I did manage to get trough it its still not easy with the littlest things reminding you there's always something there but its only you that can make things better for yourself I wanted to write this so everyone knows out there that mistakes in life do happen your not alone never beat yourself up for anything so that's why today i want to start fresh as its not going to be easy for me after the torment from the first i hope that our journey gose well and are really looking forward to updating use to hope we can start our family ❤❤👪

All the best to all the ladies out there trying to conceive 👶🙈🙊 .. My fingers are crossed

Kind regards