Baby shower disaster

Ashley
Yesterday I posted about a baby shower that was being thrown for me by two fellow nurses I work with. I expressed how upset I was because people were upset with me because one of the nurses changed the venu last minute and didn't tell anyone. She made a point to ruin the surprise for me and corner me at work and tell me I needed to let everyone know, with less than a day to go. I was upset because I had nothing to do with the planning and nothing to do with the details or changing the venu. Yet, people were upset with me and nasty towards me and talking badly about me when they thought I wasn't around. It all came down to one of the nurses backing out and not fulfilling her part of the original plan and then she decided last minute to throw the baby shower at work because that's what a handful of her friends wanted. The friends were all game for the original plan of going to a very nice restaurant for a three course meal, private room, personal wait staff, full decor, and a personalized pink theme. But because the nurse didn't hold up her end, the guest would have to pay $20 to eat the three course meal, if they wanted to eat the meal included in the shower package. There were other options and cake and snacks being provided. And when a handful of people found out it was no longer free they backed out. All of this was brought up to me at work and I no prior knowledge of any of the changes or fallouts until she got in my face. I felt attacked and was hurt that it was made about people who weren't even involved to begin with but only wanted free food. I never expected anything nice to be done for me like this, I'm over 12 hours away from all my family and friends and it made me so thankful that many people I worked with wanted to make one day special and not an emotional hell for me. Since moving to Texas with my husband and six year old I've been emotionally struggling and haven't seen my family in over 8 months. So understandably, it also crushed me to hear that people were taking it out on me and saying horrible things when the whole thing was out of my hands. I spent all day yesterday crying on the phone with my mom and trying to figure out a way to move back home closer to people who actually care about me and where I felt secure,not somewhere  where I'm alone and verbally degraded. I cried so much I had a nose bleed and didn't realize my nose was bleeding until my husbands white shirt I had thrown on was soaked in blood on the chest. The thing is I didn't need something fancy at all, I would've settled for a simple congratulations when my daughter is born. But to be so nasty to a soon to be mom when she already has the world on her shoulders and talk ill of someone who you have no idea of the daily battles she faces is heart breaking. After I posted, a nasty comment was left by a woman on glow about how she wouldn't have went either after hearing me talk and she made it all about the $20 and how guests shouldn't have to pay. She attacked me just like the women at work, for something that wasn't of my doing. It's not even safe here to voice  how you feel or look for some kind of support because women attack each other and try to belittle the other. 
Today is the baby shower and I feel like I'll be in a room filled with people who only showed up for the cake. I'll be sitting next to people who just yesterday said such nasty things about me for no justified reason at all. It's one of the saddest realizations and the most hollow feelings I've ever felt. 
I hope that those of you beautiful souls on here who are always so supportive and positive have better experiences. I hope that those of you who succumb to this type of bullying have better support systems. And I hope those of you miserable women who constantly negate others feelings and bully and dismiss others feelings find some kind of happiness and light in your lives that one day opens your eyes to the power kindness has.