baby blues or depression ?
My baby boy is finally here and I am over the moon and so in love with him. He was born on my due date but unfortunately my husband ruined it abit by turning up uninvited but I didn't let him in, he is threatening to take full custody because I haven't showed I'm "mature" to him, all of this is because he didn't treat me right and showed worrying behaviour beforehand so I did what was right for the baby and myself.
Now I know he doesn't love me but my mind won't let me forget the few good times we did have together when we lived with each other and I've been made to feel guilty by his family for not letting him see the baby.
Upon arrival to the hospital my sister went out to have a word with him, all civil and he even told her he doesn't want kids but will still go for custody.
So none of this makes sense.
While he is here for one more week before flying to his home country America, I'm staying with my parents down south so he can't find us.
It isn't until I'm alone with the baby that waves of emotion overwhelm me and I find myself sitting there comforting my baby while crying sometimes uncontrollably because I feel sorry for my son knowing his dad is no good and is a horrible person. He manipulates people's and would turn him against me,he said so himself !
I just would of loved and done anything for us to have worked out but when we last met he made me realised again why it didn't worked between us because of how he acted and this time he was worse. He even said the baby should briefly die when he's born and come back to life by " ripping his own cord" like a god so he can in the future tell people he cheated death. Freak!
Now I still get down about the whole situation and idk if it's depression kicking in or baby blues or abit of both.
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