We did a practice run tonight. I go back to work on Friday and he will be home with the baby alone for 8hrs 5days/week. So, he had to do it on his own tonight.

Welp, tonight made me realize that I do not trust him. He doesn't know what he's doing even though I've been trying to teach him the passed 8 weeks. He doesn't give the baby enough attention, like playing with and entertaining him. He kept just trying to feed him and put him to sleep. He has to be able to sleep at night! He just flings him around like a rag doll, he doesn't pay attention to him when he's eating (he stops breathing for whatever reason and needs ro be sat up and patted to get breathing, Dr says it's normal...?), he acts like it's an inconvenience to take care of him, I could go on. I'm scared. I don't trust him.