I finally lost it...

TTC RAINBOW BABY • Engaged to the Love Of My Life. ❤️
I went to sleep about 8:30 because I felt completely exhausted. I woke back up at 11:30 to my period. I thought for sure it was my month. Everything pointed to a pregnancy. I am home by myself, because my fiancé has work, and I am completely loosing my mind. I am completely shattered. 
I feel like TTC is breaking me. I have never been so emotional in my life. When I had my first pregnancy (first miscarriage) I have tried everyday to be strong. I have been depressed ever since. I lost my baby 10 months ago. It's only getting harder to be strong. & im to the point im literally almost done trying. 
I can't help it, I've been in a delicate place & I honestly need someone to talk to. I can't do this alone anymore. 💔