How long will it take...

I have nothing going for myself. I'm 23, married, have a 4 yo daughter, high school drop out and no drivers license. All I do is take care of my daughter's needs/play with her and feed my husband once he gets home from work. I'm not happy, content yes, but can't see our future well.

He is a good man, procrastinates the shit out of anything and over exaggerates, but a nice man. If we were to separate, (which we have had this conversation) of course there would be tensions at first but we have both said we won't hate each other. Yes we are lacking in everything you can imagine and we have talked those thing through but obviously it really isn't taking effect.

I married a month and a half after turning 18, was in a very dark period of my life not long before it and kinda married out of fear that no one would want me anymore because of my promiscuous past. I didn't know any better. Almost 5 years later I have realized that to love someone you have to love yourself completely first. I want to study and travel, show my daughter my findings and teach her them too. Just that being married to him, realistically it will never happen. I'll be in this exact situation except with more kids.

He can find a good woman of that I'm sure but what does keep me back from taking that decision is my daughter. I come from a bad childhood and am scared that my daughter might go through those traumas if I leave her with Nannies/Daycare. My mind can't be in the gutter the whole time but it's my biggest fear. Ive never strayed from our relationship, nor has he and I'm not the perfect wife either (couch potato as he calls me) but our routine is killing us. I have experimented with porn and masturbation but only end up feeling empty as shit afterwards. If I make the decision it will most likely be about a year from now. Idk, making a deadline sounds stupid but I do want to hear from other people's experiences and comments.