going out of my mind!! HELP!!!!

baby man has colic, I need more options to help him!! Colic drops and gas drops not working!!! 
I'm trying so hard not to break down because I feel like I'm doing everything wrong from day one had to have 2 surgeries and Clomid to get pregnant, got severe preeclampsia and a placental abrubtion, with him being 27 weeks gestation, was in the nicu for 68 days and when he gets out he won't breastfeed and my milk goes away, and now the colic!!!!