I am leaving my boyfriend of 1 year this month. Verbally abusive. Under the breath put downs. Drinking problem. Talks viciously. I am sad and overwhelmed knowing I must start over, again.  Moved with him to another state, met some fantastic individuals. I'm coming back home to stay with my parents until I find my way. Financially wise. Uh. I feel like a loser. I'm nervous to start over again. I started over with my last relationship and I was with him for 6 years. When will my time come, officially and permanently. I'm leaving my pups behind since my parents won't allow them( hardest thing to do) leaving this beautiful state behind (California) back to Michigan I go:( I'll be leaving end of this month and I will not let him know, this will be a surprise for him. I can't deal with it any longer. I know everything happens for a reason, I feel the Lord just keeps testing my strength. Goodness, gracious!:/