Had an ultrasound last week (36wks) becuase this is baby 5 and c-section 5 and they wantes to check my scare tissue as well as my uteran window. For those who don't know, a uteran window is where the wall of the uterus is stretched so thin that it can lead to a uteran tear which could be fatal for mom and baby. I had a window with my last baby and the operating surgeon told me not to have anymore babies the window was scarey thin. However, when talking with my OB she said to give it at least two years to heal before trying again. We knew we had one more child who needed to come to our family and so decided to follow the OB's counsel and let my body heal before trying again. 3 years later we are expecting our little angel now in the next 2-3 weeks. Like I was saying, the lasr ultrasound was to check for that and actually seeing it there on the screen, right next to her head and so thin it was overwhelmingly terrifying as well as finding out that for no medical reason that they know of i have alot of extra fluid in there with her which could cause me to labor early. My baby is healthy and growing well at the 69% growth rate. But, everyday is a waiting game and I am scared to go into labor, scared to move wrong, lift something just the wrong way, be intimate, do anything that coould put pressure on my uterus as I wait for Friday and a new ultrasound that can determine if we can have an earlier c-section. I want a healthy baby, i want to be there when she grows up. I want the docotrs and specialists to understand the anxiety of what I am going through everyday is not okay. They cannot take her before 38 weeks unless this next ultrasound shows some progress on that window. I want there to be progress but at the same time I dont. I am done with my rant now.