Have you ever bawled after a bfn

I am one day before AF is due. My breast have been sore for 2 weeks. I thought for sure this month was our month! I took a nap and when I woke up in had to pee I figured it had Been 8 hours since I peed so I took one of my walmart test into the bathroom. And it was negative. I came out and just bawled on my husbands chest. It's been such a long hard 3 years after 8 rounds of clomid last year. I'm just so defeated.