I want a baby 😢

AnnaMarie • I`m AnnaMarie. Married 10/14/2017, and our son was born 7/20/2018. 💙
I'm getting married this year, and my fiancé has assured me that once we're married we'll most likely start trying within a year. But I want to be pregnant now. I am in love with kids, I'm in love with my fiancé, and I want to create something beautiful with him. I literally have a trunk full of baby clothes just waiting for the day I have my first little one. 😰 I have never wanted anything more in my life. I understand completely where he's coming from, considering how our families would react if we got pregnant before we got married. But that doesn't stop me from feeling this way. I don't want people telling me horror stories about their kids to try to convince me I don't want kids, because that won't change my mind. I want all the sleepless nights, poopy diapers, vomit covered clothing, and no more time for myself. I want it so badly. I've always known I wanted kids, and now that I'm in a stable and loving relationship in which I feel comfortable creating another life, I don't want to wait. 😢 Sorry...just needed to vent.