feeling a little low...

Hi there, never posted before. I'm 44, my partner and I have been TTC for just over 2 months. I know-that's nothing compared to a lot of people here. Was on the pill for 28 years, went off in Oct, got my period in Jan. Have been enjoying the process-prenatals, eating well, peeing on sticks, getting excited...after two BFN preg tests, tho today I'm feeling very cry-ey and said to my partner "I don't want to get pregnant anymore!-it's too much work!" Prob just pmsing and feel like a spoiled brat when I think we've really only tried for one month knowing when I'm ovulating. But nonetheless-Waa! I want to be pregnant! Thanks for listening-this community has been invaluable to me