Thinking (venting😑)

Ok so im losing my mind i have been seeing people lose their babies and carrying there babies having faith and then you have me i just had my daughter November 1st i have a 6 year old and i pregnant again i had got birth control but i had to get the birth control after i got pregnant... i know this is a gift from god some don't get to experience but its happening so fast my babies literally will be 9 months apart i don't care about the judging me ill be 25 ill have three kids whatever but i take care of them well my first her dad isn't around.. But i can feel my babies flutters they say you don't but i do!