Feeling beyond emotional

Af is expected tomorrow. Took a cheapie $1 test today but in the afternoon. Tried holding pee for 4/5 hours. It came out negative. My cervix was out of reach yesterday and this morning but dropped in the afternoon. My boobs were hurting so bad for the past few days and eased up today. Feeling so emotional and defeated. I know I'm not out till af shows but I know my body and know she's coming. I'm on my 8th month TTC.