completely heart broken.

Nothing else made sense to post to so I chose controversy corner... my maternal grandma/best friend passed away in October not only from her muscle disease but neglect from my uncle that is still under elder neglect investigation. In December, my paternal grandma passed away due to a misdiagnosis at the hospital; they treated her for something she didn't have and she died in less than 24 hours; they are currently in the process of suing those involved for malpractice. My cat of 9 years got a weird infection and died in January; she's an outside cat and we never found her body to bury her. And as of Friday, my grandpa (maternal grandfather) as been at the hospital & doctors were unsure of the problem. He's a type 1 diabetic, stage 3 kidney failure, & heart problems. His diabetic neuropathy was really bad in his feet for a couple days & that stopped. He was diagnosed with c. Diff so now we have to wear PPE when we see him. Doctors said he is showing all the signs on being septic; septicemia is basically poison in the blood. He got moved today into the ICU & they'll start short term dialysis. They think he may have a knot in his intestine also. He does not qualify for surgery because he has an extremely low platelet count & is anemic so he wouldn't make it out of surgery. They want to speak with my mom today about arrangements if he doesn't make it out of the hospital.... On top of all that, my dad is being stubborn & wont see the doctor when he most likely is in the beginning stages of Parkinson's disease; his grandfather had it. My dad has uncontrollably shaked in his sleep & sounds like a seizure but he won't get checked out. And I most likely have PCOS & have an appointment the 20th to find out once and for all, since that & other ovarian problems run in my family. I just don't know what to do. I don't know how much more sickness and death I can take. Watching my parents lose both their mothers and mother in laws and I lost both my grandmas in 2 months was so hard... my grandpa moved in with us so we could take care of him so watching him mourn over his wife everyday was hard. It feels like he mourned himself to death maybe... we fed him, clothed him and everything.... even had a cna come in 3-4 times a week to bathe him when my uncle refused & my grandpa didn't have a bath for months & months. Doctors said that prolonged period of malnutrition could have caused c. Diff because the body didn't know what to do with all the new vitamins coming in through the intestines.... I don't feel any other way than just totally heart broken. I don't know what to do or how to cope anymore. My family and I could really use some support or prayers...