1st πŸ’© post delivery - freaking out

PC β€’ Mama to Cruz πŸ’™ Kaia πŸ’– and Shaea to come πŸ’—
I don't want to poop but I have to clear my system - I have a 3rd degree partial tear stitched up aaand I'm so so scared of how much this is going to hurt. I'd like an epidural please.Β 
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