Can anyone help decode my dream?

Ashley
The other night I had a dream that I had a child. She was PERFECT. Gorgeous, very intelligent, learned to walk/talk very early on. In my dream I put her down to sleep gently, kissed her cheek, walked out of the room, sunk to the floor & just started balling my eyes out because I HATED her so much. 
All I could think about was a way to get rid of her. I wondered why my mom couldn't just take her forever but tossed that idea because I'd have to see her again if I did that. I have never felt so much hate in my heart then I felt in my dream towards that child. Then I woke up.
In my dream I had already had the child, I was still at my college apartment, there wasn't a father figure present, but I wasn't even worried about that. 
Knowing a little about me may help you interpret my dream: 
I'm 22, senior in college, never had a child, have never wanted kids- but love babysitting them, I'm very kind- definitely not one to hate anyone, have had a boyfriend for 2 years who also never wants children, have the copper IUD so very unlikely to get pregnant, have an awesome family that loves me.
I've tried to analyze this dream because the feeling of hate was so intense... I have no idea where it came from. Have any of you ever had this dream? It's like it came out of no where. What do you interpret from it? I've tried googling it but nothing really matches my dream.