bad break up :(

eve family, I need help. The other day my bf of almost a year randomly broke up with me. It was out of the blue in a way, like I knew things were a little rough but I was willing to work for it because we loved each other( or so I thought). But he told me I was "mental torture" to be with. That killed me. And that he hasn't loved me for the past 3 months. He lied every time he said it. He said I didn't make him feel loved and I made him feel like an embarrassment but idk how I did that. Like I know I can get moody at times but I didn't think I was that bad to be with. It's just so hard because I still love him. We were completely fine( I thought) before and made plans for Valentine's Day. And then this happened. My heart is broken and I want him back but I know he doesn't love me. I just need to hear some positive thoughts. Or like people with similar stories, I just feel like I won't find love again. Oh and I lost my virginity to him too which makes this harder. THANK YOU TO ANYONE WILLING TO READ THIS AND COMMENT SOMETHING.