Scared 2nd pregnancy, first one was a missed miscarriage

This is my second pregnancy. It sucks hearing that though. "Second." Or I'm pregnant..."again." The first time I had a miscarriage. Worst thing I have ever gone through in my life. It was a missed miscarriage. I'm scared to death it will happen again. I keep checking myself to make sure my symptoms are still there and they haven't slightly disappeared. I know I know, everyone says " don't worry about it, it's out of your control." " it's in Gods hands" but for some reason it gives me a peace of mind when I know I'm doing something good for my little one. (Like taking care or myself, eating good etc.) I'm trying not to worry though, I know it isn't good for my little one. I think I'm doing pretty good at it too. I'm just focusing on doing the right thing and thinking positively. It's just so hard. I want to get so happy and yell it to the world but this time we are keeping it to ourselves besides our immidiate family because of last time. I want to get excited and be in love with the idea. I'm so scared to get attached, it broke me last time. I work with infants on top of that, so going back to work, that was hard. I don't want to do it again. I just pray that it will all be okay. That this time it will be our turn. Thanks for letting me vent..There are so many emotions going through me right now. I don't know what to do with them 😕Anyone else felt this way after a miscarriage and then getting pregnant after?